I guess for me the journey of life should be honest. Not everything in life is easy to take. In fact, sometimes it is down right cruel. but if we don't talk about it, if we don't work through it, it can cloud our vision. It can hang over us like a dark storm cloud and follow us around. It can seep into our way of thinking and can make us focus on the negatives. I don't want to be that way. I want to be positive. So I talk about things. I talk about the bad things that happen. I talk about the injustices of a situation. And then I try to move forward & see the positives of a situation. I am not a saint. I am not a martyr. Sometimes I fail miserably. Sometimes I let the storm clouds consume me. It happened with Chrissi's Death. Sometimes I still feel them hanging over my head and impairing my judgment. So I went to get help. I said "I can't handle this on my own." Some of the storm clouds have been lifted thanks to my therapists help. I am not saying that my grief has disappeared. It hasn't & most days there are tears shed, sometimes a little, sometimes a lot. But the grief isn't consuming my judgment anymore. And I can see some positive things that have come out of a horrible situation...like all the love surrounding my family, like the way the scrapbook community poured out love for me.
So when Gudrun threw out the word Journey for OLW, I knew what my layout would be about. My journey with therapy. I am still going. The time between visits has lessened but I know there is much work to be done. I want people to know it is ok to say I need help. I want people to know it is healthy to admit it. I want to talk about it. After all...
Life if a journey, not a destination - we determine our destiny by the direction we take. anon.
So what direction are you willing to take?
