one of those days.
it's very late and i should be asleep. I have so much on my mind lately and know i haven't taken much time for myself lately. The big neon sign in my head keeps flashing "Self Care before Self Destruct." The problem is i keep thinking who is going to get all this stuff done if i stop to do something non list related. Add into that mix one wife who is longing for her husband & one mother trying to be everywhere for her kids.
so...
how to rectifiy these feelings. prioritize. i think that maybe the key. If some things are down the list and don't get completed will the world end? probably not. Tell people no and not feel guilty. That's a battle i am starting to gain some ground on. Baby steps right? Make a list & dump it from my head. There's a big one. Instead of keeping it all bottled up in my mind i need to just sit down & write out the lists. Break out the calendar & actually make a plan. i even think there is some cool tool called a "daily planner."
but for now, i think sleep may be the best answer. Start fresh tomorrow. Make a list, tackle the list, and don't beat myself up for not completing everything. Oh and add me to the list, near the top.
