
I knew this day was coming. it comes all too quickly. One day you are walking your little girl to kindergarten (the second day she has gone to school) and she turns around, hand up in the air, saying "I can walk myself to class mom." Fast forward 13 years. Last week i drove her to California to start at her new college, Concordia University, Irvine. I know that she is safe. Irvine is ranked as the safest city (over pop. 100,000) by the FBI for the last five years. She is on a gated campus. These things bring peace of mind to me. I know she is ready. She is a smart girl who has been independent since the day she was born. Not really but it has always felt like that. I know she is very capable even if she is a bit ditzy from time to time.
So we moved her in the dorms on Saturday. Lexi had already been communicating with her roommate via texting and facebook. I am happy that relationship has had a chance to grow even before meeting in real life. There were things i learned about moving into a college dorm. Tools are a must for adjusting the bed height. Blessedly we were on a campus with very sharing parents who adjust her bed. We moved it up to slide the 3 drawer dresser underneath to give her more room. We had to buy a step stool to help get in & out of the bed then but it is worth it for the extra space. XL twin bedding is the norm for dorms and a mattress pad is a good idea. We got her settled and the university had tons of activities to get her involved. Most impressive was the president wandering in & out the dorm rooms to meet & greet the new students.
Leaving was the hardest part. It felt like abandonment even though i know this is the right place for her. It is so hard to cut those apron strings. I had to tell myself as Anthony & i boarded the plane home, that she was just on vacation. Silly i know but i didn't want to cry on the plane ride home for his sake. I opted for private tears. It isn't so much that i am leaving her, i know she will always be in my life. it's more that life is changing, my role with her is shifting, and it's the end of that true childhood where you were responsible for bringing up a child. Life does change though and i will adjust, just like she will. And we will have new adventures.
Love