Do you ever have those moments of self-doubt? or how about dips in confidence due to [insert your word here]? For me it's been about stress, loneliness, followed by weight gain because of previous two. I think we all go through this at one point or another. I call it riding the roller coaster of self-doubt. I usually hit this wall about after a month of not seeing Andrew. It's been hard without him and trying to handle everything. I am getting better about asking for help, learning to say no, and trying to not feel overwhelmed. but sometimes....
and that's when i am hardest on myself. and then bad dietary habits creep back in and it has this snowball effect. it starts out as a little pea and by the time it's down the mountain it has turned into this boulder of a snowball. In trying to halt that momentum, i am back to art journaling more (and just plain journaling). it really helps me to flush out my feelings and emotions. it helps me deal with the loneliness and depression. And while i still miss him, i find that refocusing my self with art journaling, i come out of survival mode and head into thriving. it motivates me. it's a simple jester of taking time for me instead of pushing me down on the list.
so once again i am redirecting myself. I cannot say i won't end up here again. but i won't abuse myself when i do. I will simple remind myself that i am the only one who can make the change. that i am worth it. and i think you are worth it too.
