
Time. Time with Alexi as she is home from college. She has a new summer job and is really growing up. I love how our relationship is changing and growing. She is more independent, tackling new things, becoming an adult but still likes to spend time with her mom.
Bonding. Anthony & i have found our way. Sounds like a funny statement but we both had to adjust to Andrew not being here. Our relationships is growing stronger. We make plans to spend time together. Yesterday, admist all my deadlines, we went to a movie, Star Trek Into Darkness, because time with him is really important as he closes in on his last year of high school. He has just two more days left in 11th grade.
Overwhelmed. Too many deadlines all at once. I have lists in my head but finally wrote everything out to make sure nothing falls through the cracks in my brain. There's a bit of relief just writing things out. I still commit too much and i really want to change that for me. I am constantly searching for balance.
Naturally. I am a little stress so what better time than to decide to leave gluten, sugar, and refined ingredients behind. Well i do like a challenge. I have been a homemade girl for some time choosing to do lots of cooking and baking. I decided recently to take it a step further to go with all natural cooking. It's been hard. real hard. i won't sugar coat it (oh so punny). I love starbucks chai but it's gone. I want to detox and give this a go. I am cooking even more than before but it helps to alleviate stress and commit to this lifestyle change. I will let you know honestly on our progress.
Counting. Down the days until Anthony & I head to Doha, Qatar to spend sometime with Andrew. Mid June is not the best time to go with over 100 F temperatures but it's better than the temps in July & August. This time together is important to us. Anthony & i were already planning on our adventures there since we don't know Andrew's schedule yet.
Tearful. Today would have been Chrissi's 41st birthday. It's always a hard day. I do so well most of the time. i always miss her like crazy. Time does heal but yet it doesn't take away all the pain. i really try hard to cling to the memories, to the good times but it's inevitable that tears fall today.
Beauty. No matter what the moment or day it is, i always want to see the beauty in life, even amidst tears. i am really proud of my nephew jake and his accomplishment in graduating early. To see him grow up into a strong young man despite all that he had to face as a teen, reassures me of the beauty of life.
