and still i think of you. Yes my blog, i do think of you. I often write posts in my head. And there they sit. The good news is i have been busy with family, friends, and a long neglected house. The cleaning plus purging is on schedule. It feels so good. I am feeling much better and the pneumonia is out the door. Cooking & Baking. Chicken Piccata. Carrot Cake with Cream Cheese Frosting. Baguettes. Peanut Butter Cookies. Focaccia Bread. Go Go Go......
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so ecstatic to be a new part of the Lily Bee Design Team, such a great company & so many talent designers
listening to my body when it says to slow down
wanting to tackle some painting of bedrooms & the laundry room
trying to really live the life i want, which means rearranging schedules & priorities
listening to Shiny Toy Guns' Major Tom & Dirty Vegas' Days Go By
really excited to have my dining room ceiling completed hopefully this week...Andy & Phil have made the "beams" for the coffered ceiling
happy that i did get some sewing projects started but really need to create something for me
need reminders that self-care isn't selfish
so happy to find some high altitude fixes for some baking issues, being a mile high city changes things
really trying to celebrate the little beautiful things in my life
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spring cleaning each room + purging
its taking some time but i am so loving the results
Church board meetings
teaching lexi's friend taylor to make pasta & giving the kids a refresher
Date night with Andy, we saw Avatar in 3-D imax (it kind of made me dizzy). Visually stunning. I was kind of expecting more 3-D moments. No the story isn't original but it still seems to be a lesson we need to learn.
working on some things in therapy and had some really good self-realization
Tuesday's night choir concert, lexi's wardrobe change was as impressive as her voice
Thursday lunch with local friends
feeling like i am at 85 - 90 % and trying to kick the finally remnants of pneumonia out the door
needing to create more time for some sewing projects
love that tin of threads that use to be my granny's
Bombay Sliders with Garlic Curry Sauce.... so very good but shouldn't they be Mumbai Sliders?
finally catching up with Jessi, kept feeling like we were missing each other
such much more on my plate but i love that i have the energy to do it!
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the thing i dislike about pneumonia is the amount of time it takes to recover
but there are good things to come out of it, things i have learned
i will focus on those positives
i was happy to have time to do a little art journaling, a little creating
and if you get a chance, take Dina Wakley's classes.....simply put, they are AMAZING
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i admit i disappeared. sometimes i just get so overwhelmed i don't know what to do. i hide. i thought i was being strong. and then i broke down. i didn't think it would happen but it did. and that's ok. i have been through a lot this year. being sick doesn't make this time any easier. i did too much this weekend but it was my birthday. and i admit i am sick & tired of being sick & tired. but sometimes being strong means admitting your weaknesses.
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she was suddenly gone
but she still lives
in my heart, in my memories, and in my daily thoughts
each day brings something new
in this past year, she has taught me so much
about love, about forgiveness, about family, about myself
i know people are worried about me, my family, & her boys
in truth i worry too, it's natural
and it's still really hard at times
there were some dark times last year that i had to go through
to see the light, to gain courage & strength, to learn
in this last year, i also found out how deep friendships go
simple words of "what do you need me to do," to little notes & tokens of affection, to just being there, without hesitation, without asking.... THANK YOU
that in itself brings tears to my eyes
(i know you would think i would be all dried out but it's surprising how many tears i produce)
i still feel as if i have far to go
but i know she will always be with me
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lots of pots & pans on the stove, it means dinner is cooking
reading again... i mean really diving into reading
realizing that having pneumonia just means my body needs a break
cute little fabric flowers to occupy my time
learning doing nothing is ok
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friends & family... they are very good things
chocolate, chocolate is always good
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so much time
strike that, reverse it
yep it's a busy time of year
Winter CHA just around the corner & I have much to do
and i have no time for this cold
that has sneaked up on me
extra vitamin c, & hot tea are in my arsenal
plus adhesive & some awesome new Fancy Pants Designs
i will show you what i have been up to soon
until then, love...
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I was angry with the kids yesterday. I felt like they weren't respectful. I felt like they were taking advantage of me because of course mom will always do it. I don't pretend to be a saintly parent. Sometimes i make mistakes, more than i care to admit. And yesterday was one of those days. I got crabby. I blew up at them because they weren't helping. I had it in my head what they should do & they weren't meeting those expectations. But the truth of the matter is, i never clearly communicated those expectations to them. And i let my anger get the best of me. While the kids do have their moments as well, i need to be better at communication. i am still learning as a parent.
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